deaded and confused.

Ok so I had a strange day today. Had Loz coming round to do pregnancy tests, meeting emma, going to anti-natal appointment. Well two of the three things didn't happen and thats a usual day in my deaded world. Daisy hasn't been very active at all and I'm starting to worry incase there is something wrong. I think seeing the midwife today would of put my mind at ease. I just feel so helpless being pregnant and not knowing what the hell I'm doing... Do all pregnant women feel this useless?

I guess I feel a little lonely aswell, arn't babies supposed to be created out of love? I miss having someone... Even though there was bad times I guess I miss Gaz even though he seems to of moved on pretty damn quickly and be in love. I don't feel anything for him, I don't think I have for awhile. This is a pretty sad blog... might feel perkier lately... anyone wanna rub my back for me?

Blah de blah blah!

Ok so I'm as blind as a bat so I need huggee font. Been online almost all day, loz is coming round tomorrow to do the test... dumm dumm dumm... I can't believe I'm already 24 weeks pregnant almost 25 she mumbles irritably... I'm not exactly sure why I've started another blog? Who knows daddyoooo I email mj davidson a few months ago and still awaiting reply.

Feel kinda rejected, *hmphs*. I'm sure shes just busy or thought I was a complete physco thinking betsy was like a friend but she feels like someone you could hang around with so down to earth and a little ditsy. I have my anti-natal appointment tomorrow ahhh! they'll tell me whether i have preeclampsia damn how many times have i wrote that today? mummy see see what i learnded to spell! aint cha proud. i need a bath i smellll, i smell strangely like hot pot :S. Anyways my first entry on blogger.com! aint i ace :P